In the past week, i have been bonding a lot with my group mates in Selectra. We talked a lot in our whatsapp group and we went out for an outing last Friday. The thing is... even though i studied and played with them, i still wonder if it was the right thing to do. Would it be more productive if I studied alone? Would it be better for me if I didn't watch the movie at 9pm with them? My body would've healed much faster if I were to immediately go home once school ended. :/

It was then i realised... how powerful peer pressure is. I rarely succumbed to peer pressure in my secondary school days because I knew what I wanted and I would push everything aside just to achieve my goal. Of course there were other exceptions, eg. it was peer pressure that got me into becoming a K-pop fan. Did I regret it back then? No, but now? Yes.

Why, throughout my entire life, did I have to face this issue now? Was it because I wanted to fit in? I know previously I mentioned that I really felt like I belong in Selectra, could it be because I didn't want to feel rejected again? I missed out on a lot in secondary school because I didn't want to succumb to peer pressure. However, now I feel like there's too much to do in my social life... :-(

I spent the entire day yesterday wondering how I can balance my social life and my academic studies. I even questioned God if this was a test for me. I didn't want to fail my exams, and I most certainly do not want to miss out on enjoyable things with my friends. The only way now is for me to take things one step at a time, i guess? Study when I'm in school and at home, and occasionally talk to my friends when I'm free. :-)

I can never thank God enough for giving me such great friends in Innova JC. <3 div="">